Lately, I've been going through my old writing to compile all my articles into a book. It's been interesting to see how my creative process has evolved over the past decade and how my perspective has matured. Despite my growth in many areas, I still overthink whether my writing will be valuable to others. Overthinking sometimes leads me to not send anything out for weeks. For instance, when preparing for my weekly Kadimah group, I noticed I only had four articles on this week's Parsha compared to the eight or nine from the other weeks. My lack of articles is because Pinchas typically falls in the middle of summer, when creating content can be challenging. Nevertheless, I didn't want to leave it as it was, so I overcame my hesitation, and here I am!
This week's Parsha showcases Pinchas' extraordinary courage in defending Hashem's honor. Killing Zimri was no easy feat, given his prominent status. However, Pinchas overcame numerous internal and external obstacles to accomplish his mission. This bravery reminded me of the story in Sefer Bereishis, where Chushim, the deaf son of Dan, became outraged upon learning that Esav had halted his revered grandfather's funeral. Without a second thought, Chushim dealt a mighty blow with his sword and severed Esav's head.
The stories of Pinchas and Chushim have taught me that sometimes, we must overcome our doubts and fears to take bold actions. We may feel uncertain about our abilities or be hesitant to share our talents with others, but like Pinchas, who faced his fears, and Chushim, who did not think twice, we can overcome our obstacles. When we embrace our courage, whether defending our values, sharing our creativity, or standing up for what's right, our actions can create a ripple effect that will majorly impact the world. After brainstorming for hours and deleting my writing multiple times, I overcame my challenge and finally shared my thoughts with you. Hopefully, you, too, will be inspired to overcome something you once thought was impossible. Together, we can witness the transformation of the world and the coming of Moshiach!
All the best!