Is it the beginning or the end? - Yom Kippur
Updated: Sep 24, 2021
Hey guys! Late last night, I sat down to write because I couldn't sleep and I had a lot on my mind. I thought about all those times when I would come up with a random thought at some late hour, which sparked a cool dvar Torah. I thought about the feedback and the love I received every week from strangers, family, and friends. I then thought about how I missed those experiences over the past year and a half when I stopped writing consistently. I thank Hashem for all that has happened to me in the past two years; I don't regret any experience for a second. Suppose you had told me two years ago that I would be where I am today and married for seven weeks. I would not have believed you.
Now that life has settled down a bit; I started thinking about my forgotten passions. Last night, I had a powerful feeling that something I cared deeply about for many years was coming to an end. While the overwhelming thoughts, feelings, and questions flew around my head, I started to think about how grateful I am to Hashem for giving me this opportunity of writing a dvar Torah every week for so many years. It has assisted me in facing many challenges throughout my teenage years. I have a deep appreciation for everyone who has read or responded to something I've written because it inspired me to continue.
While I ponder my next steps, I wanted to leave you with a thought. Last night, my Yetzer Hara developed a plot to ensure that I will never write on this platform again. He convinced me that it's been too long, and if I started again, it would be a lost cause.
He told me that if I promise to start again and don't deliver, it'll be worse than not starting at all.
As we approach Yom Kippur, we take this opportunity to ask Hashem for forgiveness for anything that happened in the past year. Many people ask themselves why I should ask Hashem for forgiveness if I do the same thing next week or even in a month. Won't we be right back in the same position in a year? The answer is because, during that week or even month, you are trying your hardest not to succumb to the Yetzer Hara. Even if you lose and need to ask for forgiveness next year, you are never in the same position.
To recap, I can't make any promises, but I hope that I'll continue writing because of today. Even if this is a one-time thing and you don't hear from me for a while, I am motivated to crush the Yetzer hara today, and I hope you will join me. Let's work on our most significant challenges, even for a short amount of time, because even the most minor steps are still progressing! I hope you all have a sweet happy year filled with many blessings, and I wish you all the best! Avroham Y Ross